Archive for April, 2014

#13. Ramblings

Posted: April 21, 2014 in Uncategorized

I am not sure this post is going to have much direction.  Mainly just some random thoughts that have been floating around in my head.  So I am apologizing now that there isn’t really a topic here.  

People fascinate me.  If I would have been smart when I was younger I would have pursued some sort of degree where I could just study people.  I know I am not alone in this.  I am sure the three people who are reading this are fascinated with them as well.  I spent last week in Mexico having fun with friends and the wonderful girl.  A lot of the time was sitting around drinking by or in the pool watching people.  What is fun about this is that everyone is on vacation so you really get the raw human condition.  Most do not give a flip about anything because they know they wont see any of these people again, or maybe I am really wrong and they do not give a flip at any point of time.  People wear clothes, aka swimsuits, that they should not be wearing.  Even fat people do not want to look at fat people.  Once again I know none of this make sense, I just know watching people excites me.  The human condition is amazing to me.  This is kind of surprising because for the most people I do not like people.  This is pointed out to me by a friend of mine at work.  He asks me to go out and have drinks with him on Friday after work.  Normally me declining and accepting is based on who else is going to be there.  If there is going to be people there that I know will bug me after five mins I normally say no.  Now he is a good friend and just laughs about it, but is it something that is funny?

A plane is lost in Indian Ocean and a month later so no idea where that plane went down.  Most normal people feel bad about hundreds lost and the families that have lost loved ones.  Not me.  I am fascinated by the fact that with the technology in the world today we were able to lose a plane.   I really didn’t think twice about the fact that people died and their loved ones will never see them again.  How did we lose that plane?!!  Sorry, we is the wrong word there. I really had nothing involved with the tracking of the plane.  How did they lose that fucking plane?!!  

While I was on vacation a ferry in South Korea decided to turn to fast and fall over.  Once again people are upset by this event.  Last I had heard 50 dead and over 200 “missing”.  I love that term, missing.  Wouldn’t it be refreshing if the media came out and said, ” 50 are confirmed dead and over 200 missing, but lets be real about it…they are dead.”  I guess this goes back to our strange reaction to death and how it is always such an awful thing.   Death happens every second of the day. Sometimes it is awful, sometimes it is beautiful, but it is still the same.  Someone has left the earth.  Because over 200 people die at once doesn’t make it more tragic than anyone else dying.  People die.  The world isn’t flowers all of the time.  Actually it isn’t flowers most of the time.  

So the question that I have been asking of myself recently is, what is wrong with me?  I have been asking myself this question a lot recently, for various reasons I think actually.  Anyhow am I broken in some sort of way because these events do not move me, because they really don’t at all.  Does that make a bad person?  Maybe a bit of a sociopath?  I don’t know.  I just know I hear people around me be affected by events and I am not.  I don’t know.   I wish I had a better grasp on that.  

So maybe it wasn’t so much rambling as much as it was about how I don’t seem to care about people…  

#12. Race and America

Posted: April 1, 2014 in Uncategorized

I have been debating about this topic for awhile now, but my friend at work showed me the below video and now I want to write.

Stephen A Smith and Mr. Hall (you will need to right click to open)

Might want to watch before you read on…

I understand that race is one of those topics that can easily set people off and I can’t promise what I write wont do that.  I don’t think my beliefs are bad, but more honest to what I believe.  I guess we will see how this goes.  Seeing that the only people who read this are people who know me and say they like me, I am most likely safe.

What is more important, your race or your nationality?  I think this question, or maybe the answer, is a core problem with the United States.  Stephen A Smith touches on this a bit.  He makes a statement that blacks make up only 14% of the United States.  Also stating they are not the majority minority anymore.  Now I am not going to even say that I understand the struggles and issues minorities have had, and at times still have in this country.  I know I don’t.  But does it help that we continue to make a point of it?  This is all races.   It seems to me that everything we say, ‘I am black’ or ‘I am white’ it puts that much more of a separation between us.  What I did like about what Mr. Smith said, was that just because you’re black doesn’t mean you need to support every issue that involves a black person.  This is a lesson that all races need to understand.

There once was a time in this country when people related who they are to the state that they came from.  They were not black, or white, but a Coloradoan, or Virginian.  I kind of miss those days.  I think where we are from or the region we relate to tells us a lot more about who we are than our race.   I digress however.

We have a lot of issues in this country.  Racism, both ways, is a big one.  Racism is not just white people talking bad about minorities.  You’re all pretty smart so I don’t think I need to define racism for you or spell out what I mean.  What I do believe is that the more we make an issue out of race the bigger the problem becomes.  Should it be ignored?  No, but it also shouldn’t be a crutch.  It should be an excuse for not bettering oneself.  It shouldn’t be another races fault that you were not able to succeed in life.  Once again, life is about choices.  The people that succeed are the ones who are able to rise up and over come their challenges.  People who understand that it is going to be hard, but don’t let that or anyone stand in their way of getting out of the hell they find themselves in.  I know I have sent this to most of the people who read this, but if you haven’t read this please take the time.  Great writing about success of two black people.  Esquire.  Once again off topic.

Everyone is to blame for this referring to oneself by their race.  Mainly whites, I think.  I have no data to support this, but I am pretty sure it would have been whites to started to refer to Asians as Asian Americans and blacks as African Americans.  Why are we not just all Americans?  Are we the only country that does this I wonder?  And when I say that, I don’t mean in some government form I just mean common people.  Maybe everyone does it.  Maybe I am just rambling about nothing.  I think I would like us to get to a point where we are simply Americans.  We are not black or white or brown.  Just Americans.  How much better of a place would that be?  I tend to think it would be a lot better.

That was more rambling from a rambler…